" Dear God, Hear My Prayer! "

Dear God,
Hear my prayer, for I am about to pray like I have never done before in my life. In an earlier blog I talk about taking my mothers advice a lil more to heart & listening to it a bit more then I have been. She looked at me today & asked what was wrong with me & of course it is the same thing again. I feel soo empty & heart broken. We talked & talked about it & of course if I go on about it in more detail I will be here all day & night with you. So I will break it down to the mean point of my prayer. After everything she said to me she asked me, & I qoute: " Do you really still love her & miss her? & Do you really want her back?". I then responded, Steph? All confused for that one moment. I looked at her & said yes & then no & then yes & no again. I finally looked at her & I answered with an open heart..." NO! " She went to ask me the question that I already knew was coming out of her mouth...so I answered right away before she could finish asking. " No! Cuz what I really want...What I really want is for her to be happy, no matter what that means. I want her to find someone who will treat her with all the love she deserved from me. I want her to meet someone who will see her always as I do now. Through your eyes mom & the eyes of God! That's what I really want Mom. So God hear this story & hear my prayer...let her be happy, no matter what that means. Thanks Amen.

P.S...I can at least say, that I was once a part of her life as she was of mine, & she will always be in & own a part of my heart!