" Surrendering to the Truth & your Memory is Freedom! "

I have surrendered to the truth of your memory, I will always Love you, you will always be and have a piece of my heart. Truth is that...I am here and you are there. I have fought to win you back, but my attempts were in vain. I fight your memory, but I know that someday I will no longer feel what I feel for you. My heart will belong to another. I will be on the banks & shores of a different Love. ( I borrowed that from some song...haha) Till this day it has been nothing, but Rainy & Cloudy days, Tequila sarrows & painful memories. My friends will tell stories of my Life & as I turn 23, some sweet Angel (Hopefully Katie) will set me Free. As this change or changes accure right now in my life, I will rest my soul in the hands of the lord. As I will then mess you no More!

" One Persons Trash is Another Persons Treasure! "

" I Hate & I Love...Can anyone tell me why? "

Everyone in life from a young age has learned to hate & love. These two powerful feelings in life have the ablity to do some enormous damage to everyone. I of all people have felt these two feelings from all different parts of life. From being hated from/by friends, society, ex's and anyone or anything that you could think of. On the other hand I have also felt the greatest of all feelings in life, which is LOVE. Which I might say that I took for granted very greatly in the past years. But as they say, "What only hurts us will make us stronger!". I also say that it makes us wiser. Why do we do the things that we do? Why is it that when we have a good thing going for your self, we all take things for granted or/& throw things away? We then get that out rage of hate, when we figure out our flaws or are told that we were wrong or/& what we did was wrong. At the same time we are hated for those flaws. Love falls into that same pattern but is a longer lasting feeling inside our minds, souls, and heart. Through out history we have learned how love and hatred has changed our society and our way of life in modern day. We learned how hate could lead us into and what hate would lead us into by the Nazi's. We have also learned what love has done and would lead us to do from the Troy's. Just look at the whole Helen of Troy love, war, hate, problems. Now in our own modern day life we have such a great hate for gays...but if you look back in time our own people, our ancestors, they were open about gays. Men of higher status would have the ablity to have a lover of the same sex...even in the army it was allowed. For it was seen and thought that you would fight harder for someone that was close to you and loved, then for someone that you were just standing by! So I stand here infront of everyone in my life and say that yes, I have come to Love and Hate. I have these feelings, but why? Can anyone really tell me why? Why do I love that person more then this person? Why do I love that girl now and hate her later? Why must I have these feelings, and why must people always ask me to show them? Why must we do the things we do, and Why am I even writing this about myself? So can anyone really tell me, "Why?". SO can YOU!? Can You really tell me WHY? Come on, Tell ME!! WHY!??

You spent a lifetime caged. By accepting who you are, all that you are, you can be free, and freedom is power.

I have finally come to in understanding of my own...the more I try to protect you and the other people around me that I love...It seems to me like the more I try the more you/everyone gets hurt. I really do think sometimes, that you/I should remove the problem that is hurting you/I instead of that hurt/problem to be kept around to keep hurting everyone. I don't know what to say/do anymore...and the fact that I tried to stand up for her was soo fucking uncalled for! This I already know. I would really like to say That I am Sorry, but in a way/form I would have really not of said anything at all, but I really have so ecknowledge, what happened this night, & realize what whats done, said, & unaccomplished...well its the worst way in which it was handled! There is no more to be said or done... I will just let things go and let them be bye gone! The End is The End in so many ways then one!

The End is so bitter sweet!, But The End is still the Fucking END!!
Learn to let it GO...

You spent a lifetime caged. By accepting who you are, all that you are, you can be free, and freedom is power.

As I borrow this quote, I intend to say the following:...Sorry its at the tip of my mouth...just dont know how to put it...maybe i should ask the wannabe smart one. It will come to me sooon! Just wait for it..its coming soon!!