“Even After a Year My Heart still Hurts, the Longing for a Love is so Strong & so Unbearable”

A Year has gone by with the pain still inside me, the hurt and knowledge that I (Alex) have indeed hurt the one person that I ever LOVED till this day! Even when my home town was my sanctuary for awhile & you seemed to never leave my mind…for the first time in a whole year I saw you in Perkins & I felt a crush & pain of such magnitude that I have never felt with any another person in my life! Even though I write for myself, I still can’t get you out of my head & I can’t even stop thinking about you every minute of the day.
I know I hurt you and I know what I did was wrong and that no matter what I do or say or try to prove, I will never get you out of my head or life,…& you’re right… “It’s time for “ME” to HURT”…Just like you told James K, but don’t you think its time to give us(me) another chance & to let us Both try again & prove what we had is not a joke or to be taken for granted ever again in our life time!? I asked you to marry me & still wish you would. I Love you with all my heart & really wish you could read this and see what I mean and how sorry I am and that all I really want is just another chance in my life to prove to you my LOVE!!!!
“As one hand holds me back, My other pushes me Forward…My Love still shines for you & only YOU!! Please God give me Another Chance in my life with this angel to show her that I so still LOVE her!...I wish you could so read this and that you might give us/me that chance! In God’s Name I Pray!